Mathew, I'm finding it very strange that I can speak to somebody, whom I have not met or just known for 15 days this much. I don’t speak to Dominick this much for these 15 years. I don’t know if I’m doing a mistake, but till today, I wonder how I gave u my number, may be it's gods plan as u said, but at the same time, we may come across many attractions in life. But we have to overcome these attractions.
I find you as a person very good, affectionate, I think ur wife is lucky to have husband like you. It's unfortunate I don’t have a husband like you. But that does’nt mean that I should look out for somebody. If this was the case I wouldn't have lived with him for 15 years, though I know, I’m wasting my life with Dominick.
Even for me it's new, I really don’t know what is love, becoz I did not fall in love with anybody until today, or before marriage, I was in 2nd year PUC when I got married. All these years, I spent my days, like go to office and back home, cook, sleep that’s it. I was not allowed to speak to anybody or even have friends, and i 2 became very reserved, never used to speak to anybody, though many people wherever I worked had crush on me. I just used to ignore and continue my life.
You might wonder, then why I was on chat site. That website was sent to me through some common friend. I have my limits with anybody, and if they go beyond the limit, I stop it there. And as I said, I keep adding friends. But when I got your request, I felt something genuine in your face, and I was satisfied about ur requirement on the site, U VERY CLEARLY SAID, ONLY FRIENDSHIP<>
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Has this happened to you? It is true that we meet a lot of people whom we think as Mr.perfect or Ms.perfect. Unfortunately, most of the time, it so happens that either we already have a boyfriend or girlfriend or engaged to be married or already married. When we are committed, choosing to be with another person is not the right thing to do. It's a question of character, ethics, morality. However, in terms of practicality, it's the right thing to do. Unfortunately nobody knows what the future holds for us. It's possible that this Mr.nice or Ms.perfect need not be like that at all. They may change, they may turn out to be somebody totally different. Or it's quite possible that they would be there for us no matter what. We don't know. We will never know. That is the reason why god is so smart and so powerful as to not to let us know the future.
What we are today is because of the choices that we made somewhere in the past. What we will be in the future is because of what choices we make now.
It's the choice we choose to make and once it is made, we will need to live with that decision. We can always make a new choice. However, nobody else will be there to take over. It's up to us to live with whatever decisions we make, no matter, who ever we are!
